That’s how long I went without thinking about you, until now. My mind’s in this weird place right now, and my heart’s tagging along for the ride. I feel like if we don’t work out, I don’t think my happiness will ever be complete…and that’s kind of an extreme thing to say but that’s how it feels on the inside.

It felt nice for once, not having you occupy my mind the entire day, eating away at whatevers left inside my head. I feel terrible for thinking this way. You don’t deserve anyone thinking maliciously of you, and especially coming from me.

Maybe if I go away for a while, which I need to do regardless, the situation will just solve itself……I’m a lunatic